Dear Baby #4

Dear Baby #4,

There is no drama to your story.

Before your sisters, R and D, I had two babies in my belly that went to live with Jesus.  I miss those babies every day, and it made me appreciate and hold on to your sisters that much more.  They were precious because life is fragile.

It took us a long time to get your brother in my belly.  A long time of waiting and wondering and praying.  Questions not being answered, concerns not being understood.  This made me appreciate him so much more because I had to trust God's timing.

You didn't have any of this.  You came without waiting, without loss.  That doesn't mean we love you any less.  You will have your own story, I'm sure of it.  The struggle is part of the journey, and though we don't like it at the time, we praise God and His perfect timing.

For right now, since we have only met through warm, watery embraces and little kicks, we are just so thankful for you.  For this precious miracle God has entrusted to us.  Whether or not there was drama in your arrival, you are still a miracle, sweet child.

Even though you are our fourth child, we love you just as fiercely as we loved your oldest sister.  You, little one, are so blessed because you will have 5 people that adore you in this house, from the first day you are out of my belly.  We may be crazy, noisy, rough, unconventional, but we know how to love.

My precious peanut, I anxiously await the day that you get to meet your daddy, then your siblings.  That you get to know the blessing of this family.  But for now, I am content and blessed to carry you.  My littlest miracle.